Avatar Social Network | Community and Credits!

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Okay, so, just to get it out in the first paragraph–that’s an ATM, and that sign in the background does say “MAKE MONEY!”

However, it also says “Avatar Social Network,” which is the name of one of the best virtual-world and sl focused social websites I’ve ever seen. A lot of the websites I’ve seen advertised as virtual world or SL equivalents to facebook have been exact clones of facebook, but with poor coding, or disappeared or went dead silent after a few months of action. ASN is small, but the community talks to one another and shares a lot of their virtual lives. People from IMVU and various MMOs are also on ASN, but most of the community feed looks like SL and various opensim/privately managed grids.

I’ve been on ASN for… goodness I don’t even remember. I went inactive for a while with a short SL hiatus, and came back on my birthday this year! There’s a lot to see and learn, like people advertising their clubs and photography, and groups that get together to do flash mobs!

One of my favorite things to do is go through the main feed and welcome new users to the website… So do me a solid, and go sign up so I can welcome you!

 

That right there is my personal sign up link, but if you want to see some of the cool stuff already going on on ASN… here’s a few links!

And… as I’m sure it’s piqued interest… Doing absolutely anything and everything on the website will net you ‘credits.’ Credits can be exchanged for currency in some virtual worlds, like SL! For SL, the transfer is at a rate of 100 Credits per 1 Linden dollar.

You can earn credits for logging in, posting statuses, blogs, and forum posts, and interacting with posts other people make!  (As if you NEEDED the extra encouragement to share all the cool stuff you get up to!)

Avatar Social Network is a pretty refreshing social website for virtual worlds. Sign up here!

Elasticity is a Hard Form to Find | Bounding into Any Direction

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I think it’s funny how often I think of a challenge as being ‘new’. Somehow, every disaster is the absolute worst thing that has ever happened to me. I took these pictures some time ago, during one of my many crises, and failed to edit or do anything with them until now.

I’m not in the clear, but it’s a lot easier to breathe now that I’m focusing on other things–like fun and finally filing my fafsa a month and a half late.

Which, by the way, if you will be a student in the United States of America between july this year and june next year, PLEASE click this link to OFFICIALLY file your FAFSA FOR FREE via the official government site. DO NOT EVER pay anybody to file your fafsa for you! It’s FREE! fafsa.ed.gov!!!

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Anyway… Somehow, I’m still going. This time four years ago, I thought I wouldn’t be. This time a month ago, I thought I was reaching my end. In fact, this time yesterday evening, I could feel death drawing closer to me. It’s absolutely amazing how much you can reach, stretch, grow, and achieve when you feel like you really aren’t doing all that much.

Even if you don’t think you are growing, you are. Even if you think you have stagnated, you have not. Every breath and every moment you live, even the parts that are agony, are building you up further and further.

Please don’t give up. Even if bending, stretching, growing is the most taxing and tiring thing in the world, I know you can do it! You can tell all your family and friends that a God believes in you, lol.

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I found that going ‘back’ to struggles I’ve had before really put this month and the start of 2016 in perspective for me. I’m learning a lot about myself, even if I don’t feel too smart about it, and it comes through mistakes and confusion.

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Keep stretching! You are what will get you through all of your struggles!


Here’s a song for us! It’s one of my many power songs!

 


Credits!

Dress: SPIRIT – Liko dress in pink

Jacket: SPIRIT – Liko jacket in holographic

When You Sing | Healing

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//Couldn’t say what i wanted to say

But now I’m changed and i feel so strange

//Come alive when you say all those things to me\

\Please go all the way – it feels so right – being with you here//

||Lost in a maze of a thousand rainy days of a thousand rainy days||

But when I heard your voice – it led me to the end

//You are my center when i spin away

\Out of control

On videotape on videotape on videotape on videotape on videotape

||Cause when you sing I hear a symphony

Swallowed in sound as it echoes through me

||I’m renewed, oh how i feel alive

//\ No matter what happens now – you shouldn’t be afraid

\// Today has been the most perfect day i’ve ever seen

I’ve no idea what I am talking about

I’m trapped in this body and I can’t get out

Have the lights gone out for you?

Because the lights gone out for me?

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in other news things are stressful again. It would be far worse if they weren’t.

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Bracelets: Mad Echo – Princess Bracelet

.random.Matter. – Norbu Wrist Cuff – Black

scarf: *League* Ananda Scarf – Heather

skirt: Foxes – Tarot – Skirt – Small – Sky

shirt: Foxes – Tarot – Top – Med – Blue

Progress!

I made Ekvardun’s current avi in five days with a Slink mesh body, a KZK gryphon, and a lot of chocolate.

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He started out like this, with the chocolate texture set, which I tweaked and dressed a little by changing the head and chest fluffs and shape.

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Even though it was pretty, it still wasn’t right. About a week ago, I was actually present with Ek sharing screens and dinner. We had some fun, listened to music, and bonded over having just cleaned her computer of malware after three years of absolutely no protection.

And somehow, this happened.

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In the thirty minutes we sat together and talked about changes, we figured out we could change just the inside face of the wing feathers, just the skin/feathers on the head, and that the newly updated Slink bodies come with an RGB tinting hud. Now there’s a homemade Turkey Vulture mod with absolutely no texture editing or extra parts whatsoever!

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Death Upon the Vine

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How could something so fair be so cruel? \

But if you’ll be my skyline,

then I will be the wave

that reduces you to rubble

and looked safe from so far away. //

And all our debris flow to the ocean

to meet again, i hope it will. \

There is an answer in a question,

and there is hope within despair,

and there is beauty in a failure,

and there are depths beyond compare //

“Darling don’t you understand,

that there are no winners? \

My love, why do you run?

For my hands hold no guns.”//

And there is grace within forgiveness

but it’s so hard for me to find. //\

And I tried to be kind for you  \//

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Today is not a very good one. I’m struggling, and instead of doing the things I’m supposed to do (Thanks, Dialectical Behavior Therapy!) I did this and cried a lot. The ‘poem’ above is some lyrics tortured from the songs on Death Cab for Cutie’s new Kintsugi album.

Constrais-Obligais doesn’t get credits post because she doesn’t do clothes ever.


 

We’re Not Done | Let This Be Memory

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There are very few things certain on Earth-Plane. There are even fewer things that you can be certain of about another person. There are things about oneself that aren’t certain, are yet uncovered, and may never be completely discovered.

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Even though being together, learning alongside and entwined with others, is such a gamble–we have ourselves and our trust and health to lose– I feel that not being alone is one of the most beautiful facets of living on Earth.

There are billions of people, and trillions and googols of other life forms sharing the crust, the skies, and the waters. There is something to learn in every strand of carbons, and in every transmission of neurochemical arrangements. These are comforting gambles–you will come away different than you were before, without ‘better’ or ‘worse’ judgements applied.

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Even though the surface is too deep to bust through in a few goes, reach out to the others that live here. Everyone deserves the chance to grow and learn, to discover their own depths and secrets. It’s easier done together.

 

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Credits:

Caverna ObscuraShahrazad in Pearl

Enough.

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You are enough. This isn’t to say that you are perfect, stagnant and doomed to be ever still, ungrowing, and silent. You are enough, your growth and organic and inorganic changing are perfection. Where you are going, moment by moment and breath by breath, is enough.

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Life on this planet isn’t a race–your individual life, especially. It is enough to be better than you were last year, last month, last week, or yesterday morning. It is enough to feel, even most of the time, that you are not or never will be better.

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Please, next time your head is bowed so low you taste dirt, next time your feet drag so heavily you take mountains with your slow steps, please remember that this is ‘enough.’ You are not lacking, substandard, or failing. Take your time, and simply be.

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=Zenith= – Time Traveler in Milk @ We <3 RP December 2015

Darkshines | Consumption

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Recently I’ve been working with a newly-joined Mate on power exchange. Like a whirlwind, I blew into his life, mixed it up, and now have him wing-deep in an entirely new phase of identity. I can’t blame him for having fun, for wanting more and craving that closeness in losing himself to Divine Will.

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Recently, while at work with him, I had a song stuck in my head. There’s a specific Muse album and specific songs on that album that mean a lot to me–that soothe me when I’m pretty close to bursting and leaving a swath of destruction in my wake. He’s pretty similar. He stays present and awake when I’m charging off into some emotional extreme or another, he holds me and sings when it’s simply unbearable to exist in my own body. He is a soft, soothing presence, and so is that song.

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Passing by, he lights up my darkest skies. He takes only seconds to draw me in.

Here’s to hoping that this new venture goes well–that keeping our joint health in mind will serve us in the long run just as well as he serves me!

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So be mine, and your innocence I will consume.


 

Credits!

Dress: .Arcadia. Leannan Siren

Bracers: .random.Matter. Norbu wrist cuffs black

Necklaces:

:[P]:– Raven Collar Rose

Zyn ~ Wishbone Necklace – Ruby

Head flowers: Boudoir – Miss Havisham wedding wreath

Some Funked Up Shit (future tense!)

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I’m headed uphill after a long, low slope. (I know I say this every month or three, but really!) I have the support of my wonderful mates, and they share and show me the nicest things! I’m starting to experience music in a new way, connect to it as more than just disjointed ideas or something to fill in silence.

I’m hoping, more than anything, that me moving uphill will pull others behind me. Preferably on pretty leashes, but I’ll settle for ‘in spirit.’ The more hands you hold, the more there are to pull you up when you stumble!

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This post is more than a little bit dedicated to my doll, Osette (unfortunately not pictured!) Who is having a bit of a rough time and needs a lot of light and support in exchange for her suffering and patience! Also, who doesn’t want to fuck shit up to peppy music?

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Let’s fuck shit up!


Credits!

Leggings: Goth1c0 – Unicorn Leggings Galaxy

Sweater: American Bazaar – Girlie Goth Sweater Rose

Heels: [MODA] Galina Webbed Heel

Arise, You’re Alive | Temporary Absence of Light

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Things are rough. Sometimes, they’re rougher because I refuse to let myself rest and have nice things. Even I can’t sit with me, apparently. (insert laugh track)

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I come up completely blank trying to find a period of time that hasn’t been at least a little awful. In looking back, I realize I should have cut myself some slack. Should have taken a few more breaths. Should have just had a damn nap and saved myself some pain and suffering.

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It’s my fault. I’m always rushing forward–always have to perform, always have to earn supper, always have to be right or strong or in power. Even though I think I’m doing these things, gaining or maintaining these qualities… It’s almost never true, and I need to trust and rely on my own capacity for restfulness just as much as I rely on comfort from loved ones.

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I could make things so much easier on myself if I’d just chill for two minutes and let it be easy. Accept what is going on, do it, move on. Relax. Even though it probably won’t be long before I’m hurtling along horns-first into more trouble than I can handle.


a song to cool off to!


Credits!!

shirt: Cult of Belgar – Holographic Movie Quote Top

skirt: [lady.fakessi] Vinyl Skirt Blue

heels: ::HH:: Hucci Izki Sandal – Strawberry (Slink)